A 10 year, $75,000 battle for custody of my son who was ripped from my arms and kept from me for 8 long years at the Sovereign hand of my all good, all knowing, all powerful, all loving Heavenly Father who allowed "the King's (Judge's) heart to be controlled (& hardened toward me) like a watercourse and allowed me to be falsely accused, attacked, and persecuted for my own good and His glory?
After 10 years of praying, hoping, & trusting God for a miracle, my deliverance looks like this? A restored relationship with a very broken 18 yr old who is currently living on the streets behind a dumpster, where he also finds many of his daily meals, because he would rather live that way than give up a lifestyle of drugs, alcohol, gang activity, & criminal behavior?
Phone calls from that wayward child at all hours of the night on a regular basis that he is being arrested, being taken to the hospital by ambulance, notify me that he has been in a car accident, or otherwise have me walk him through the process of getting whatever substance he has overdosed on from one day to the next out of his system to save his life?
Recovering from job loss a year ago and the financial devastation that resulted, (from whatever had been recovered from the cashing in entire life savings and selling homes to fight for the above mentioned child to no avail?
A season of attack on my marriage to extraordinary degrees?
A relocation and life transition and adjustment 9 months ago to an area that is an entirely different way of life than what we've ever known leaving all of our support system, family, friends, church relationships behind and having yet to establish those things in this wilderness, walking through it all completely alone?
Just coming out of a time of year that is always extraordinarily difficult for our family at the sobering anniversary of my brother being tragically taken from us?
Concern for suffering loved ones?
Uncertainty of the future?
Can you relate? What storm is in your path in this season? From the daily mundane to the little storms to the catastrophic ones - any magnitude challenges are faith! Right now I want to complain, fret, cry, be depressed, declare woe is me, walk in hopelessness, despair, and defeat. To be honest, there are days, I know in my know what I need to do to engage in the battle, but I simply don't want to and sometimes if I can get past the wanting to, I don't have any energy or fight left in me to! I absolutely have to look up and so do you! So on the days when I know all the things I'm suppose to do to gain victory in my battles but don't want to or don't have the fight to, on the days I go get on my knees and don't even know what I could possibly pray for anymore...I mean, let's face it, in my really huge thorn in my life with my wayward child, I think I've covered it all in prayer over the last 10+ years, on those days, where do I turn?
So what do I do on the days I don't want to battle for faith, I don't know what else I could possibly pray for, it all seems hopeless, etc.? I can turn it all back to praise, take the focus off of me, listen to a song with words that actually encourage me and give me hope worth having, not a false sense of assurity or something that temporarily makes me feel better. But if I truly focus, reflect and declare some things over my situation on the days when all of my own creativity is gone, it's amazing how you're thoughtlife begins to line up with those truths. Once your thoughtlife is lining up with truth, it overflows to your heart, which overflows from your heart to your actions! Try it today! If you're where I'm at today, what do you have to lose? I will post a few songs that have been extraordinarily encouraging to me today! I pray you are encouraged, that your thoughtlife and posture of your heart follows, and in turn you walk in victory no matter what you are facing today!!
After 10 years of praying, hoping, & trusting God for a miracle, my deliverance looks like this? A restored relationship with a very broken 18 yr old who is currently living on the streets behind a dumpster, where he also finds many of his daily meals, because he would rather live that way than give up a lifestyle of drugs, alcohol, gang activity, & criminal behavior?
Phone calls from that wayward child at all hours of the night on a regular basis that he is being arrested, being taken to the hospital by ambulance, notify me that he has been in a car accident, or otherwise have me walk him through the process of getting whatever substance he has overdosed on from one day to the next out of his system to save his life?
Recovering from job loss a year ago and the financial devastation that resulted, (from whatever had been recovered from the cashing in entire life savings and selling homes to fight for the above mentioned child to no avail?
A season of attack on my marriage to extraordinary degrees?
A relocation and life transition and adjustment 9 months ago to an area that is an entirely different way of life than what we've ever known leaving all of our support system, family, friends, church relationships behind and having yet to establish those things in this wilderness, walking through it all completely alone?
Just coming out of a time of year that is always extraordinarily difficult for our family at the sobering anniversary of my brother being tragically taken from us?
Concern for suffering loved ones?
Uncertainty of the future?
Can you relate? What storm is in your path in this season? From the daily mundane to the little storms to the catastrophic ones - any magnitude challenges are faith! Right now I want to complain, fret, cry, be depressed, declare woe is me, walk in hopelessness, despair, and defeat. To be honest, there are days, I know in my know what I need to do to engage in the battle, but I simply don't want to and sometimes if I can get past the wanting to, I don't have any energy or fight left in me to! I absolutely have to look up and so do you! So on the days when I know all the things I'm suppose to do to gain victory in my battles but don't want to or don't have the fight to, on the days I go get on my knees and don't even know what I could possibly pray for anymore...I mean, let's face it, in my really huge thorn in my life with my wayward child, I think I've covered it all in prayer over the last 10+ years, on those days, where do I turn?
So what do I do on the days I don't want to battle for faith, I don't know what else I could possibly pray for, it all seems hopeless, etc.? I can turn it all back to praise, take the focus off of me, listen to a song with words that actually encourage me and give me hope worth having, not a false sense of assurity or something that temporarily makes me feel better. But if I truly focus, reflect and declare some things over my situation on the days when all of my own creativity is gone, it's amazing how you're thoughtlife begins to line up with those truths. Once your thoughtlife is lining up with truth, it overflows to your heart, which overflows from your heart to your actions! Try it today! If you're where I'm at today, what do you have to lose? I will post a few songs that have been extraordinarily encouraging to me today! I pray you are encouraged, that your thoughtlife and posture of your heart follows, and in turn you walk in victory no matter what you are facing today!!
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